I know that people will be talking about the winter of 2013-2014 for a long time to come.
Whenever someone tells me that this is "the worst winter ever," I usually just nod and agree.
Worst winter ever.
I feel like the weather is mirroring our own family's experience.
Worst winter ever.
I'm sure you've also seen the Disney movie Frozen. It is a big favorite in our house. Everyone loves the soundtrack and some of us even went to see the sing-a-long version. Solly and Yael (even David) walk around humming or singing the songs....all the time. Okay, me too.
It was also the last movie that Sammy saw in the theaters. We saw it in Orlando during his Make-A-Wish week. (I do tell myself that he would be completely annoyed with Yael and Solly's constant warbling and in true obstinate-Sammy-fashion, tell us he hates the movie now. Or maybe he would be singing right along...)
There are a few parts of this movie that bring me to tears each time. Anna sings that now-iconic song to Elsa: "do you want to build a snowman?" because Anna can't understand why Elsa is cutting herself off from her beloved little sister. I weep when I hear this. Like Anna, Solly can't understand where Sammy is. Yael and David miss his presence. The beauty of this sibling story is so deeply poignant for me. I never fail to be brought to tears by this bit of the movie and this song. I hear Elsa's voice: "go away, Anna!" and I hear Sam saying "go away" when he was feeling particularly sick or uncomfortable. Oh...
And then there's this: this image below is, to me, one of the most powerful pictures of grief:
Sometimes I feel just like her. Sitting huddled against a wall, the swirling darkness all around.
But I am not alone.
And that makes all the difference.
It really and truly does...
Elsa and Anna reconcile. They come together in beautiful sibling harmony.
I cry then too. Because our ending just isn't the same.
Oh, how I wish it could all have been tied up in a neat happily-ever-after-ribbon.
So I have to say again: worst winter ever.