Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Day 201

Today is 201 days since Sam died.

Yesterday, day 200, was also a day of public and communal mourning in the Jewish world.

I couldn't watch, I could barely read the articles. I could hardly think about the not-knowing, the sick feeling, the open-wounded-hole in those families about which I know far too much. I desperately wish I could write: "I can't imagine what it is like to have your child die." But I do far more than just imagine...

It's different, of course. Every story is different. Every parent, every child, every community...

And yet it is just the same. No matter how private or public. At the end of the day, it is the same.

One of the mothers, Rachel Frenkel, bravely reminded people, "God does not work for us."

Oh, how I wish that she was wrong. Oh, how I wish that God just did what we asked. Those three boys would be home safely.

And I would be pushing Sam on the swings...

More scenes from Summer 2011:

Where we were:
Two years ago.
One year ago.

And today....
Yael's artwork


  1. That picture of Sammy in the red shirt took my breath away and brought tears to my eyes. So beautiful, sweet and heart breaking...

  2. Thinking of you, and of your beautiful children.

  3. These photos do make me gasp and are so wonderful and heartbreaking all at once. I imagine that no amount of love can fill the hole.. But we'll try He remains on our mind and in our hearts.

  4. I haven't ever met you in person, but I've been following your story, and Sam's story, for a long time. Today when I was walking home from an errand, I randomly thought of Sam...and then I saw a feather on the ground. Sending you gentleness and blessings.

  5. Beautiful Sam. Beautiful children. i only can imagine your longing, Plyiiis, as you live it. My heart is with you. As it is with the mothers of the three beautiful Israel children. I pray you and Michael will have some peace.

  6. To Sammy and our three boys: We will never forget!

  7. the pictures are so sweet. all of Israel should have bracha, and shalom.

  8. beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful boys--another 200 days begin

  9. The photos are beautiful reminders to your readers, of Sammy, and of our three boys. Thank you, as always, for sharing.