Snippets of the last couple of weeks...
The last Passover we spent with Sammy...
The way he loved the frogs and the silliness, how he really didn't like matzah at all...
Remembering him and knowing there's always an empty seat at our table.
We gathered together for a family picture and Solly says, "We have to wait for Sammy!"
There was an audible gasp..."yes, Solly, we all want to wait for Sammy."
In the US, there's never a personalized necklace with Yael's name on it (in Israel, she's always lucky) but that never stops us from looking. And of course, there's always a Sam. How could I say no to a heart locket with "Sam" written on it? She doesn't want to take it off.
January, February, and most of March -- these are months in which Sam never had cancer. Months in which he never spent a night in the hospital. But now it's April, and for the rest of the year, each date is seared into my memory, a day to think about where we were on this day....
Would he be teaching Solly the Four Questions?
Would he be counting down the days til camp?
Would he be finished with all 7 Harry Potter books?
Forever....we will wonder.
Forever...we will miss him.
Sammy's NP, Molly, is walking her own scary path and she's raising money for the Leukemia-Lymphoma Society. Read her thoughts on our Sammy here and we've given her one of Sammy's drawings to sell in a t-shirt, so you can buy an all-new, original Sam Sommer t-shirt here. This is a lady who knows the value and benefit of research dollars, let me tell you.