I was driving today, wearing sunglasses.
Because the sun was shining.
And then suddenly, it started to rain.
But the sun was still shining.
I looked around, thinking that if I tried hard enough, I would find a rainbow.
But I didn't.
And then the rain stopped.
The sun shone.
Sometimes that is how I feel.
The sun can be shining.
And without warning, a monsoon pours down upon me.
I am overwhelmed with grief.
I want to find a rainbow, to imagine that it's going to end.
The rain stops, but sometimes the rainbow doesn't show its face.
Sometimes I am completely overwhelmed with the realization that I'm never going to wake up and find Sam here.
I hope for the rainbow. For the light and love and blessing.
Sometimes it hides its face.
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Two years ago: Out the Window (yes, we saw a rainbow two years ago today!)
Three years ago: Quiet Shabbat
Five years ago: Differences of Opinion
Thinking of you.ReplyDelete
I understand the feeling. 😥ReplyDelete
you have the most cutest pics. of sam. wishing you that thru your writtings, and teachings, you will find comfort, may you have only nachat and good times with your family. shana tova, u'metuka,ReplyDelete